gatita88

to my cupcake =

2008-03-29T08:40:32Z

i want to place my fingers

oh so gently on your thighs

i want so badly to look in you eyes

please tell me you will too

i love you

oh muse your blue eyes
inspire me

the kisses from your lips
dont compare to

the fountain of youth
my muse

your heart i want more
than life itself

to have you in my arms
once more

so i can breath
everything that is you

my heart implores you
to stay near (please)

its because you make me
sane

i want to love you
my lovely mistress

like no one has
before

Inspiration

2007-12-25T10:15:59Z

Ah you lady poetry

how you seem to

despise me

you remand me

daily and yet

you sing me sweet lullabies at night

you show me the

worlds true colors

you make me happy then you smite me

with your intensity

send me to other

galaxies

where peace, love, contentment

does not exist

only madness does

prove to be the reining

power

and my loved ones

are thrown into an abyss

but then you throw

me a life saver as i knew you would

do

and we start out

entire relationship

anew

as if we were

lovers

dancing in the moonlight

each step tentative

and yet overflowing

with passion

Ho you lady poetry

how pesky you can

be when you allow

emptiness

to brew within me

ive become

altogether different people

thanks to your influence

and worlds fall to your

feet

and rise in your mists

you give blessing

yet you own the

greatest of

curses

Ah my first true

lady love

poetry

one day

perhaps you'll be

the death of me

gatita88 @ 2007-11-19T15:23:00

2007-11-19T20:24:26Z

hate myself so much right now, my dumb little heart still yearns for the love of a guy who is sooooo fucking dumb he doesnt' diserve my affections....and yet i yearn for him, if only i could rip him out and be rid of him forever. unfortuantly, it dosen't work that way. btw, i kinda wanted to say yes to the question she asked me but long distance never works out and i know from experience and i really hope that she understands that and knows that i still love her no matter what! can't wait to get my cupcake and my industrial and maybe a tongue but then i won't be able to talk for a week lol wont that be fun...well thats all for now i guess keep in touch

HELP SOMEONE!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH

2007-11-10T23:06:16Z

okay so i had a really blond moment with a friend and i crossed that line........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i fucked up everything i can't be who he thinks i am or what he wants me to be so it suuuuuuuuuuucks............ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i hate my life but yet things are working out somehow wtf??? im so confused right now, im just gonna stop ranting and raveing now

nothingness

2007-11-10T01:41:31Z

everything i do kinda ends up hurting people....i sometimes wonder what life would be like if i were to leave everyonw alone....but im so selfish and scared to be alone, it hurts

none

2007-11-10T01:40:50Z

so i went back to cutting...not exactly a good idea, but i did none the less...i love my gf and i wish i didn't have to break up with her....im a bit scared at how being bi changes everything i mean i could marry a girl now......if they if ever pass a law to allow it that is...lol im really down and mad as hell that im down..and now i have to pull an all nighter cuz my dumb ass decided to leave all the packing and shit till the last minute...so im just ranting right now instead of doing what i should be...which is packing and shit...i hate my life sometimes...its kinda fucked up that i decided to move for a fresh start and now im so fucking scared to start over i cant even sleep normally...its really fucking dumb.....but i got to spend time with my adorible girl today and that makes me happy if i try really hard not to dwell on the fact that im leaving so soon.......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

untitled

2007-11-10T01:39:59Z

the uncried tear
builds
int the chest
threating to

explode!

Break through!

A volcanic eruption

of unspoken uncertainties

and unwanted fears

cuando bailamos/ when we dance

2007-11-10T01:39:15Z

old ass poem a found just now bear with me

the heat in the room

rises

to 108 degress

we step in

young

willing

eager

and ready

we are

going to

dazzle

the crowd

but mostly

our bodies are just

talking amongst

themselves

we express

with our movements

the anger, the

sadness, the

joy, the

lust, the

everything we feel

and whatever we do

feels, oh

so right

we flow with the music

not against it

the beat of the congas become

the beating of out hearts

if even for one

moment

our objective is the same

expressing ourselves

with dancing

and staying sure

we have nothing to lose

Por Que

2007-11-10T01:38:45Z

Friends torn away
From this world
damned and gray
Only one shares in
my pain
when will I see
you again?

Fucked this life
will be
Untill once again I
can see
the sun rise
in your eyes

My Own Burial

2007-11-10T01:38:05Z

She died
From the first time I cried
I never thought
I'd be at my own funeral
She's gone
And nothing is painful anymore
Because I'm dead
And nothing is love
Because my heart is
an empty space at best
A black hole that swallows up and
distroys everything at worst

Am i?

2007-11-10T01:37:11Z

You wear your sorrow
Like an armor coat
Made to protect you
From uncanny deads
And yet it weighs you
Down, down, down you go
You can't lift your eyes
or even speak
It seems unfair
You should not be weary
You should not be weak
You should be merry and
run, shout and play
Instead you pick the flowers
try to stop them, before they decay
Am i yet your sunflower?
Or have i withered in your eyes?
I want to point to the sun
but these shackes weigh me down
too i love you

Late At Night

2007-11-10T01:36:19Z

Dark, black nights
that bring sorrow and fright.

So much like that night
I had decided to take my flight.

The moonlight is my comfort
the stars sooth me to sleep.

But under this blanket of darkness,
I feel nothing but small and weak.

And then, after a time of fighting pillows and sheets,
My body gives in to a nightmarish sleep

I drift in and out of sleep
from dream to dream
Praying that no bad memories
come back to haunt me.

Then I'm up in the morning.
Light is blinding, sound is deafening.

Then I'm up again to walk once more through the fog
That makes me cranky but meek.

Late At Night

2007-11-03T19:57:22Z

Late At Night

2007-11-03T19:52:08Z